Eek

I went to my doctor (the one who operated on my foot) because I have been having some terrible pain on my right side, from mid-butt to my ankle. On the opposite side from my ouchie hip. Of course. Why make it any easier for me? The pain is bad, sometimes excruciating. I can barely keep from crying sometimes and I can't sit with my feet down or in their normal (wheelchair induced) position. The only effective pain-free position is laying down

It appears that my back is pinching or irritating nerves. Epidural shots have been bandied about, but the doc thinks I need to fuse/rod even more. My fusion ends at L4 now, so there's not a lot of room left to fuse.

And I don't think I can do it. The ides just frightens me so very much. I've had many surgeries, many big surgeries, but this one ...

And, you know what? I may be freaking out for nothing because I don't see the back hacker surgeon until January.

But if things don't go my way, I expect large quantities of balloons. I'm just saying.